
I am going through a time of growth and change right now. For me, that is a good thing. I try to reflect on my life, and see what is working for me, and what isn’t. I like to think about the people who are in my life, and those who may not be worthy of that spot. I have a quote on my facebook page that says, “The hardest thing to do in life is to figure out which bridges to burn and which ones to cross.” I think this statement is so true. I am currently in this place. I have people in my life whom I love, but there are certain aspects of their character that I do not like. There are times when I find that I must love that person from afar.
I am at the point in my life where I don’t want to deal with the foolishness of others. I don’t want to deal with the drama anymore. I want to deal with people on a mature, adult level. I don’t want to have to deal with the issues that should have been dealt with back in the day. I am growing as a person. I want to live out the fullness of my life. To do this, I may have to say goodbye to some things or some people, but I know that the journey will be worth it. As the old saying goes, “I love you, but I love me more.” For once in my life I am learning to put myself first. I am learning to care about what I need to grow, not just giving to others what they need, then being cast to the side.

Aquarius Soul recommended that I read The Prayer of Jabez, and this book has been a complete blessing to me. I am not completely done, but I am receiving it into my spirit as I read. I had been praying to God for a renewing of my spirit man. As the scripture says, “Though the outward man perish, the inner man is renewed day by day.” It is so important to me that my spirit man stay fresh. I needed to hear a word from the Lord, and I believe that He used Aquarius Soul to deliver that word.
The Jabez Prayer goes as follows:
And Jabez called on the God of Israel saying, “Oh, that You would bless me indeed, and enlarge my territory, that Your hand would keep me from evil, that I may not cause pain!” So God granted him what he requested. ~I Chronicles 4:10 (NJKV)
I am allowing God to take over control of my life. I want to be the woman that He wants me to be. One of the things that stuck with me while reading the book is where Mr. Wilkinson talks about how we have become jaded by the word “bless” or “blessing”, and I find that statement to be a true one. We bless people when they sneeze, we bless our food, we ask God to bless our friends and families. Somewhere in all this the meaning is watered down. As I read this book, I am asking God to open my eyes to the things in His word that I may have glossed over, or become jaded by. I want to live in the fullness of God’s power.
I am embracing this spiritual journey. I have my spiritual ears open so that I can hear what God would have me to do. One of my favorite scriptures keeps coming to mind, “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not unto your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct your path.” This is where I am in my journey. If that is not your goal in this life, then I pray that you get there. I want to get what God has for me.
My goal is to say this pray daily, and expect that God will do new things in my life. I want to not only be blessed, but be a blessing to others.
As I journey on, please pray for me. Pray that I will remain open to God’s will for my life.
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